So... I've been thinking I am ready. I've been single now for well over a year and I have really been enjoying it. I've learned to live by my own schedule-- doing what I want when I want. I am taking better care of myself than I ever have-- working out and eating right, getting sleep and doing things for me. I'm focused on what I am most interested in, and instead of taking care of a significant other I am taking care of myself and my wants, needs and desires. I have learned more about myself in the last year and half during grad school than I did in four years of undergrad... more about what I want in a partner, what I want professionally, and how I define myself as an individual. But is any of this worth it if I can't share it with anyone?
I know it is. But I want to share it with someone, and I want to be able to share in someone else's successes along with mine. I feel like I'm ready to open myself up to love again. But I don't want it to just be with anyone. Now that I've been single for this long, I'd rather stay single and wait for the right person, than just date someone to date someone. As they say in Definitely Maybe, I want to be interested in someone who is interested in me. Someone who values me for me and wants to learn more about me. I know I just need to be patient, but I just wonder sometimes how patient I have to be, especially as people around me are finding what they are looking for...
I wish I just knew when it would happen for me too...
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